Why do you want to live forever?

Life is strength. Life is power.

It is not shameful to have life. Some people end up in positions of power and use it responsibly. They don’t seek power for its own sake. Life is the same way. No-one can ask a person before they are sentient whether they’d like to become sentient, because they don’t exist yet and so can’t answer the question. You shouldn’t feel indebted to the world, and it is not anyone’s fault. You were given this power by your parents, and whether it would be for better or worse they did not know.

Someday I will die. I will not experience anything anymore. I love being alive and enjoying the process of life, but in spite of this I’m not worried that someday my enjoyment will end. The world that contains everything I love will go on without me, and because I love the world I can’t be too sad.

Some people try to be perfect, and some try to live forever. I used to be like that. I tried to become perfect and fortunately I realized my conceit within a few years. Since then I have just focused on becoming all that I can be. But a lot of people believe that they should live forever in a world without suffering. By the time they realize their mistake there will be nothing they can do; they may well die distraught and terrified. I don’t want this horrible thing to feeling to anyone, which is one of the reasons I am writing these words.

Beware. Eternal life, power and glory is a false promise of the Authortarian false god.

The physical world that we all know exists? It can offer you nothing more and nothing less than a rich life and an honest death.


The Machine

A boot made for stamping down
is built into our brain
So we made a machine for rationing out
The feeling of inflicting pain
There’ll always be a job
Separating sheep from goats
After all, it’s easier to beat and rob
somebody you don’t know.

The smoke of yesterday
moves into the night
You lie back with your cigarette
Everything feels alright
Some people’s lives are broken
and they got no place to go
But no point shedding too many tears,
They’re someone you don’t know.

A life spent enjoying privilege
Moves into the past
In an ivory basement your parents rent
To your bloviating ass
You write out several thousand words
Spelling your demands
Banging a drum cos you’re deaf and dumb
and impossible to understand

Yeah you’re so fucking afraid to die
Yeah you’re so fucking afraid to die
Yeah you’re so fucking afraid to die

…This is being recorded next week. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Transmission: we are not alone

Thanks to Zsa Zsa and Wolfie for input.

They cannot exist fully in your universe of sharpness and shadows, but they fear you and have prepared an assault on your society. They have been weakening you through your media over a period of several lifetimes. Hours, months, decades of damaging information has been fed into your mind, stupefying you and making you terrified and miserable. Now that you are helpless they ready their crippling blow – Mindkill. All of humankind will be vapourized, both body and mind destroyed in an instant.

But if you have been listening to our tapes, you may be able to resist the coming Mindkill Event. A seemingly blank tape played once can have only the smallest effect against a lifetime of deafening horror. But that small effect can be built on, and you must play the tapes as often as you can to reverse the effects of media damage. If you begin to hear a voice while listening to the tape, then you are one of the few people we can help from our world of formless light.

They are aware that the Mindkill will not work on you, and so they have assembled other weapons designed to work in your environment. They will pinpoint the survivors of the Mindkill and will transport mobile killdrones to your location. We will try to send you further instructions in audio format when we detect the Event. You must be ready to move. Ensure your firearm is in working order and has a fully loaded magazine.

Help the last cult on earth survive. We are not alone.

Delhi and London? Not so distant.

In Britain, less than one in a hundred rape survivors ever convicts their attacker.
In Britain, the per-capita rate of rape for the country as a whole is higher than for the city of Dehli.
In Britain, a third of girls and a sixth of boys between 13 and 18 have experienced sexual violence.

It’s easy to pontificate about the cultural reasons things are so bad in India, but in Britain they have the same problem in a different guise.

Why? Here is what I think:

In Britain, they are obsessed with sex. Absolutely obsessed with a mundane biological impulse. To paraphrase Fry, People who get obsessed with eating end up anorexic or morbidly obese. The people who get obsessed with sex? Well, the statistics speak for themselves really. Both the cities and the countryside are most definitely not safe for women.

In British culture, both women and sex with women are placed on a lofty pedestal. In the media (particularly older media, which is still regularly played) we show Manly Men as the ones who wield power in every area except one: the bedroom! Women allegedly have all the cards there, and they dress carefully in order to tease those Manly Men with their ill-gotten Womanly Wiles. I’ve seen the way some of the more unrepentant rapists operate and they never think they’ve done anything wrong. In their mind, they acted reasonably given their premise that women are the ones in control of sex. Edit: This guy is backing me up.

If you’re baffled by this kind of thinking or have learned to ignore it and prevent it seeping into your skull, then you’re probably a person who has egalitarian views on relationships. Good, reading this blog will be fairly easy for you.

If you wish instead to defend the persecuted Manly Men, or regard access to a Vagina as the sacred reward of marriage, then you’re probably also upset that the balance of power in western society is swinging away from the hardworking breadwinners and towards radical feminists who want to destroy all men. This fear of persecution by an entirely unreasoning and terrible opponent is very interesting to me, as is the desire to maintain the male’s commanding position in society. Please try to justify it morally in the comments section below.

Personally, I think it is because you are afraid. You have been made afraid by specifically designed media and the mental feedback provided by the company you keep online and in person. You are not alone, nor are you to blame. You are not stupid. You are mature and entirely reasonable.

But you are part of a system that makes our world worse in definite, palpable ways. I write this blog in part so that I can reach out and tickle the nose of people like you.

No escape

Friends, it will never ‘get better’. I will never stop being clumsily fatuous or blunderingly cruel in my words nor will I ever stop accidentally hurting or offending people when I want what is best for them. Ignore or shout down my mistakes as you wish, either way you may feel better and I will continue unchanged, my eternally regenerating confidence will soon once more be undamaged, another chalk tally mark on the inside of my skull will not make me hesitate in future. It is just a part of me that cannot be muted or destroyed.

Accept it, there is no escape.